So I thought I was the blogger type and could effectively start a blog, guess not cause its been way to long since my last post, Since June of last year. I have lost my dad who I regretfully did not get to say all the things I wanted to and am dreadfully scared he doesn't know and now never will. The loss of a parent at any age is the hardest thing I have ever had to go though and I think its about time that I say it out loud that it may have caused a lot of depression that I hide for me. So here I am almost a year later and missing him and feeling the grief just as much today as I did then, I am a mother of two very active children which I feel does not allow for me to focus on my health.
I succeeded in finally making my dreams come true and making the 3000km move across canada from Ontario to Alberta, although it was my dream....... My reality is that even though my husband is working, we are back at the bottom of the barrel and more broke then we have ever been, Our first month rent got paid and we struggled through, this month we face eviction as now we are nearing the end of the month with no payments made, I am trying to pull at the stop short of taking out payday loans for the amount of the rent. I have used and abused my Mother for anything and everything that I could thus far and feel that I will not ask for another cent its unfair. My wish is that the government would have helped out more. They would have offered us an incentive to move to higher employment unfortunately not!!!!!
I am going to quickly learn how to coupon and relay solely on freebies to feed my family for the next month, I am trying to start a private dayhome but again that takes money( where is the money tree when you need it) I wish more then anything that I could call my dad right now and ask him what to do and how to do it, he would know or would have found out for me. See again this all comes back to his unexpected departure. I know this is not my typical blog as I would have mentioned something about freebies, I just dont have the mind set and if you have read this far. I want to thank you and please leave me some comments!!!!
as always the mommy of Two
